56*3600/(1024*8) which is around 25 megabytes
Heh. An mp3 of a song was around 5 megabytes. So, if I wanted to listen to a song, I'd have to spend 20% of my total internet time dedicatedly towards that one goal.
Then I eventually first got introduced to a broadband line, when Bhaiya was in his third year of university, about 7 years from that first introduction to internet. I also got introduced to torrents. And local servers. And the rush was amazing. I mean, I didn't have to wait a really long time to download a single piece of music any more. It also meant I could be multi-tasking. I could be reading up on the latest Naruto chapters, while a movie was downloading in the background. I could take breaks by watching HD videos that I'd find on the LAN. I was amazed as the high bandwidth I could get and thought that any time when the internet line is not being used to the maximum possible bandwidth is a "waste of internet". And I knowingly couldn't bring myself to waste this beautiful beautiful thing.
And that usage pattern continued, and weirdly enough leaked into other aspects of my behavior. And not particularly in a good way. I mean, when I was trying to "not waste" internet, it's not like I was using it to save the world or anything, right? So, in multi-tasking in real life, I basically took it to mean I shouldn't be taking a shit without browsing my phone. Such a waste of time. If there's an advertisement while watching a film, I should use that time glued to my phone. If I'm walking up to campus, I should be checking Facebook posts and listening to music (double multi-tasking, take that!). Time's a more important commodity than internet, and no time bandwidth can be wasted.
I only recently made the connection to this urge of utilizing the bloody bandwidth in all aspects of life and the really low attention span I have at this point. I mean, I never really learned to do multi-tasking properly. All I learned was to break down the time to small parts and do different things at the different times. I began to give value to trivial tasks and important tasks alike. I mean, focusing on a single important task is for chumps, I'm increasing bandwidth utilization! And if need came to focus for a longer amount of time on a single task, which might be important, it turns out I'm not equipped to do that. Surprise!
So, I've been trying a lot at recent times to let go of the bandwidth thoughts. I keep telling myself I don't need to utilize the bandwidth to do pointless tasks. Just because there are more posts in the wrestling forum doesn't mean I should be trying to spend my free time reading those. Just because there might be this new fancy tutorial video on YouTube which might give me a minute of excitement doesn't mean I need to watch it. And I'm trying to stop this silly practice of high utilization and trying to rather focus on doing on what I need to.
